Saturday, December 31, 2011

...well we made it.
Another 150,000,000 miles or so, that long trip around our sun...
This, of course, is not even a detectable blip in the 450 billion years or so that this has been going on.
...but in our short lives here, if we are lucky, it represents a little more than one percent of our total time on this planet... for me it's 2% of my time so far.
In the northern hemisphere, we observe the end/beginning of this orbit at the darkest and coldest time of year, a time seemingly especially made for contemplation and reflection.
I tend to make a lot of observations in terms of how I can improve going forward... "I did to much of that, I will try to do more of this", "I need to stop acting like that and more like this", etc.
Commitments made mostly in vain of course, change comes incrementally at best... Hopefully something sticks and we continually move forward in some small way... assuming we even know what "forward" means.
For me I think it means moving towards being the person I was put here to be but I flatter myself thinking I even have any idea who or what that person is... Most likely I am already and always have been the person I was meant to be and the striving to be more the person I think I was meant to be continually folds itself into that person... and here I am...
And so we move forward into another year. I view every day as a gift, a whole year is beyond comprehension, certainly far more than I have ever done anything to deserve or have a right to.

Here is a good version of that great Sandy Denny tune to take us out: